Nothing Much

SPM is done!
wow, time did sprint. It's hard to believe that my years as a high school student is done. well, it would be a lie if i say i'm not happy with it. I AM, but waking up at 11 just now, i realized i don't have commitment, no works to be done, and also, no waking up in the early morning. No more. For three months. It's quite sad, because i feel lifeless. All my years, since i was a kid, books are my friends, my enemies and my everything. Or to be exact, my life. for 13 years, my life is full with studying, studying and studying. It was all about studying. i did have fun in between by the way. but most of the time, i was busy studying, scoring and passing. i have to admit, i love studying. But, i hate exams! i have no idea what to do to fill in my free time. Jogging? Yes, i would, every evening. but the rest of the day? Just plain boring. I can just go hangout with my friends, but i would end up spending but i'm totally broke right now so hanging out? not the best option. Thought of working, doing part time job, but i don't know, lazy i guess. I still can't believe that i'm 17 and my REAL LIFE starts. i still think that i'm just a young teenage girl but actually im not. Hmmm, i like to be childish most of the time and even my mom said, my younger brother is more matured than me. I'm totally fine with it because i dont like to feel old. Sometimes, when people judged the way i wear and  when they said, i looked old, i got offended. i feel like telling them i have no idea what fashion is. YES, i dont know how to dress up, but please, it hurts. I got hurt easily and sometimes, i feel stupid because of that. i wonder how would my boyfriend looks like, can he stand my behavior? The paranoid, emo, moody, childish and annoying  me. i wonder. Well, wait and see. So that's all i guess.

P/S= life is too precious for us to be sad on.