Circumstances

People said, "life is full of circumstances. No matter how hard you had planned something, if it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be." From my point of view, life is indeed full of circumstances and we are actually walking on a path that had been set for us by Allah. However, this does not mean we can't change the path and Allah even allow us to do so by praying. I believe in fate which accompanies by faith.

Typical circumstances are like from friends to strangers, from enemies to friends, from someone special to no one and etc. It is indeed complicated but I surely can't deny the fact that without those, we would learn nothing. 

Sometimes circumstances are what bring us down and consequently, what makes us stand still varies. My faith in Allah's plan is my food on surviving this ugly world and my parents' happiness is my objective. Often i forgot, making my parents happy are also the same as finding His blessings. Im too busy looking for His blessings by doing charity stuff, read Al-Quran, perform sunat prayers but my parents' blessings are often neglected. So in sha Allah, my parents' happiness is my priority because I believe that your happiness comes from your parents'.

Friends come and go. Some bring happiness and some bring sadness. Yes, those who brought sadness were painful but those who brought happiness were the painkiller. I am often sad and disappointed with friendships that I had built before but now, whatever happens, I  will try to stand strong and get used to it. The pain is still there and I have to admit, whenever I started to think about it, it hurts so much that I feel like shutting down the external environment and just live in my own world. Alhamdulillah, I've never thought of committing suicide, take drugs or even drink to get rid of my problems. 

I have to admit that I am a really jahil person where there's happiness, Allah is not in my thanking list but when I'm sad or want something, Allah is my number 1 in my hoping list. Why? It's not a matter of why but it's a matter of correcting it. Rather than thinking about it, changing it sounds better. I am indeed a person who has unbalance emotion and often sad, pissed, happy, emo and etc at random times. People do get annoyed and I do know that. Some people even said that I have changed but all I could say is no. I have changed but to someone that I know I'm comfortable being as. Loud, random, and serious. 

Overall, I learn that no matter how far and how hard you want something, your life depends on Allah. Have faith and stay strong. Last but not least, love yourself and be the one you want to be. Not someone who people want you to be.

P/a- this post is not dedicated to anyone but the reason I posted this is because a friend of mine wants me to continue posting.