Beginning of Auckland-er

Life has been stressful but Alhmadulillah, everything is slowly going well.
I'm slowly getting a hang of what my job is even though there are things that I'm still blur at.
But hey, everyone struggles at the beginning. It's normal.
I can do this!

I had times when I wanted to quit and just either go back Christchurch or home but I know, I will disappoint not just my parents but my friends too, who are proud of me or those who had struggled to get a job.
I'm thankful for all those people that have made my first week at Auckland bearable.

Adam, absolutely has been a greatest support. He checked on me and he was there for me whenever I needed him. But my bad, I didn't think of how he is too, struggling with his own things right now. With his exams coming up, trainings, and work. I felt really bad because I didn't realise it took a lot of his energy to maintain everything and he did break down. I felt like I was being selfish and I hope he's not mad at me😭 (well I think he does but he didn't show it).
But yeah, so now I'm just giving him all the spaces he needs and let him sort out his stuff.
"Distance makes the heart grows fonder." Mai told me this and I have to admit, I love this quote.
It does make me appreciate Adam more and I love him even more.
I like how he talks about things that we can do in the future and it feels good, knowing that he wants this to work.
We discussed about a lot of stuff especially on how to work things out and yes! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
I am utterly grateful to have him❤️❤️

Mai has been one of the greatest support too. She talked to me whenever I needed to talk to someone.
She even called me! It feels good to know someone misses you💜
I am so excited to go back malaysia so I can meet Mai and the rest of the girls. There are so many things to catch up.
I gave Mai her fav snacks and teasme as my appreciation gift to her. I know it's nothing much but I hope it will make her day.
Out of all the friends I have at christchurch, I know she's the one I can rely on and she will always back me up whenever I need it.
Even tho sometimes she will cut my heart 💔 with a knife, but I know, she just want to help me out.
I'm gonna miss her a lot!

It's amazing to have Huda at Auckland. To have that one person whom you know you can go to whenever you need someone like home. Moving to auckland has been hard but I do admit, knowing Huda is here makes it a bit better. As usual, Huda being Huda, the cheerful, funny and YOLO yet matured in her adorable way. I look forward to more hanging out days with her.

I have to admit, Nukman and Ahah have been a great help too. They made me feel at home. They tried to cheer me up whenever I'm down and they tried to make sure that I don't feel left out. I appreciate them so much💜. Even tho sometimes Nukman can be so annoying👿 But I'm glad I have them to hang out with whenever I feel like I just want to chill at home. Ahah and I were not that close but I like how we are getting along quite well☺️. Looking for more baking session with her.

Of course, my family especially my mom and dad too have been a great help. Having them in my mind whenever I'm stressed with works boosts me up coz no one likes to work but hey, you gotta deal with it. I miss my parents 😢. 2 more months to go!

That's all for now?¿

P/s: I didn't get into the Christchurch Chicks team for World Ultimate Championship. It broke my heart even more to know me moving to Auckland was one of the reasons why. Only God knows how long I broke down and actually thought about quitting frisbee (technically can't quit coz I promised someone that I won't and I will play with him). I thought I had a shot. I really did have a high hope on it. It's hard to convince myself to not care about it coz I know I had wanted it. Mouth can lie but heart can never lie. Ill just see how my frisbee career turns out after this.

Ciao!