I am not perfect but what I've been telling myself is not to mind people's business and just focus on yours. Be yourself and don't let other people bring you down. Well, I know myself and those are just words. I've been trying to be myself but people still judge me. I've been trying to satisfy them but they still want to talk about me. Friendships got ruined, hell lot of frustrations and dramas and I, myself has changed. I know I'm not supposed to change the person I am but I'm just tired of getting talked about.
We can never satisfy people and what we can do is to satisfy ourselves. I would want to do that and honestly speaking, I am utterly excited to finish my time here and go to Christchurh to pursue my study. Why? Because I want to be away from these discriminations, dramas, hypocrites and more. All these NEGATIVE VIBES. However, I met some great friends and I wish to keep them. Those are the people who make me laugh, who support me and who aren't bother with what people think. I love these people. However, what people think cant be ignored all the time, we can actually pay attention to those that are meant to correct us. We just have to find out which one it is.
Nowadays, people try really hard to be the person they aren't a just because they want to fit in. It has gradually becoming a norm and we can see that almost everywhere. In my opinion, it doesn't matter if you don't belong anywhere because at the end of the day, it is all about you. Yes, it will be lonely but good people will come along and that is what I believe in. One day, I will find the person who matters the most (despite my family of course) and devote my life to him. This is when the road won't be lonely anymore and in Sha Allah, to a better person.
Life is hard and it sucks but what we can do is to go through it because sometimes, those hardship are meant for us to improve our strength and faith. Keep trying and don't forget to pray.
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