2015

I can't remember much how had i started my 2015. All very messed up and i need something to refer to, for recap. I have to admit, this is because I'm trying to forget most of the things that had happened this year. Those things haunt me like a nightmare and i am so scared for it to happen again.

Unfortunately, my dropbox didn't manage to recap (i know u don't get it but just let it be). Oh wait, it did manage to recap. So, i learned that i had spent my 2015 new year at Johor Bahru. Well there was nothing much other than went to visit my relatives around Johor and shopping at JPO. I remembered that i bought my favourite my Nike shoes!!

My nephew, Daniel.

After new year, my second trimester at Kys continued. I love KYSB but I've had some bad experiences there where i regretted it so much that i wish it didn't happen. So many with the same person and i am regretting it. I am embarrassed on what i have done and i have to fight it whenever it crossed my mind. Well, I'm not going to talk much about it now, maybe i would when i want to wrap this up ((Maybe)).

So, college continued. Few significant events happened where it hurts at first but after that, hey, life is too short to cry over such things. 

Meet Ain J.

We were closed, me, Ain J and Olly but she had started to hate me because of my attitude. Well, who would not if your best friend is slowly close with someone else. I lost her also due to the fact that i had started to be an idiot. I learned that she looked up to me and was disappointed afterwards.

Meet Anis

I have to admit, i haven't spent much time with her as compared to foundation but i truly appreciate her as my friend. Even if i couldn't spent much time, i always remember her birthday and celebrate it. She was there for me during foundation especially when my heart was broken by my first love (Not sure if that is my first love or not but hey, i think i loved him).

My Sri Aman besties that i love dearly (Missing: Anis)

Due to  the fact that everyone was busy with their own personal life that time (Ayesha+Emir+Lyana) (Karyna+Razzin) (Huda+Ezzad) (Mai+Aqira), we promised each other that we would always hang out once in a week. Towards the end, i had failed to do so.

Few weeks after that, few NZ students came to visit us and we played rugby together. Being the captain for the team taught me of how important it is to understand your teammates and appreciate their strengths and help them with their weaknesses.

KYSB has great juniors that i find them adorable yet scary as some of  them do have hidden agenda.

Ive gained one good friend who is OLLY! 

I started to hang out a lot with her and some other juniors. They were all awesome until the part where people started to show their true colours.

After trimester 2 ended, Legends went for a short Langkawi trip and it was awesome. I enjoyed it so much. Nothing much to say about the trip but we went for snorkelling, island hopping, parasailing, banana boat, chocolate shopping and ate good food.

After that, trimester 3 started and i remembered how on the first day of that trimester, i had forced Mujiib to bring me to Klebang coz i wanted to drink the Klebang Coconut Shake. 

One of the ways of me letting my stress out. I remembered i had done this at McD.

Anis organised a running event called Colour Run. Karyna made a video of it and i truly love them all. 

Surprise surprise, Izzy came back from UK just for me.



Izzy is a great friend but I've hurt her so many times that i don't think i deserve such friend.

Amira, my other best friend where i treasured most. She's the nicest person I've ever met and i really hope she will be happy with her new person. She has been hurt too many times that i don't think she ever deserved those.

Amira is that person where you cannot hate even if she had hurt you. She is multi-talented and the most hardworking person I've ever met. I really hope she will be happy with her choice of life and may Allah bless her always.

Meet Qiha, my new best friend.

I started to get close with Qiha coz of frisbee and Olly. At first i sympathised her but slowly, i built my friendship with her but not simply because i sympathise her, its because she's a nice person. However.... SHE IS TOO NEGATIVE AT TIMES but slowly, i helped her out and i did give her silent treatment when those happened and she slowly learned how to control herself. She beat herself so much that i feel like i have to be there for her. But hey, that can't continue coz i have to get married! jokes.

I went to watch my sister's sports events and i am so proud of her <3 br="">

 

Went for a short Terengganu trip with family and these people are the reason why i am who i am now.

Olly <3 td="">

Olly and i started to get distant as she thought i had replaced her with Qiha. I was so down and i cried coz I've lost a good friend there but Alhamdulillah, we were good after that.

Fit and Fat group

Nonetheless, i gained two good friends where i consider them as my sisters. We did sports together and even hung out a lot. We even did our first running event together!

Meet a part of my Wind house members.

With my Wind house members and being one of their captains was challenging yet wonderful. They were all supportive and i have enjoyed it. Even though along the way, there were conflicts and misunderstanding, it turned out well and we won the best house award. Umar was a great captain to work with and my committee was wonderful!

Before our final exam, room 102 had their big chaos ever. Karyna was breaking up and few days after that, Ayesha also. Huda had hers before so thank God for that. Huda and i had to comfort these two and it was hectic. It was so hard to be there for them and at the same time i have to focus on my studies. Haih. But, they all were okay after a week, ALHAMDULILLAH.

Short camping for Legends by KYS. Had to learn how to cut chicken and fish!

With Tan Sri halim Saad during farewell dinner.
Alhamdulillah, I was announced at An All-Rounded student after receiving my Excellent Academic Award. Unfortunately, it was announced when I went to the toilet. Hahah, such an embarrassment.

Golf with Legends

Graduation night. I MISS THESE TWO PEEPS! (Mujiib and Don)

Meet Hafiz, my sweet best friend <3 td="">

Mr Sharaan.

He cried that night coz i would not be able to say hi again to him. He told me that he liked me because i was one of the people who had treated him nicely. He's a good person with his own opinions and beliefs.

Meet Mr Zaidi, one of the men that have my full respect. He's the CEO for KYSB.

Went for BTN camp and these peeps cried after that! I didn't coz i know we're gonna see each other soon!

Important people in my life <3 br="">

My fav frisbee team

Being the person who introduced frisbee to the college was remarkable. I had managed to build a frisbee team and i hope that it will be one of the important sports at KYSB.

My other Sri Aman gang!

Congrats to Fasya for her wedding <333 div="">

Glad that my departure was delayed and i was able to celebrate my Raya with my family <3 td="">

Glad that i was able to go out with Milla before i flew. 

And also I'm glad to be able to meet this twin!!! 

Had my last frisbee and handball session before i left for NZ.

Around 23rd of July, i had left Malaysia for NZ. So many people came for me and i was so grateful for them. Had a 15 hours transit at Melbourne and we had safely arrived at christchurch early morning around 4am.

Lunch at Melbourne with my flight gang!

My flight gang when we landed at Melbourne for a lounge transit (Missing: Wafiq)

Meet my other friend, Shaufi. He's a really good friend with noisy mouth! ahahah

Had my first trip around Canterbury. 

Raya party at Toy's.

Had my first snow experience even though it was for a short term

Meet Akid, who is someone i respect for its knowledge and thats all.

Akaroa trip!

My little sister that i had missed so much. We facetimed a lot!

Meet Dandan, my friend from Canter who is actually in her late 20's but she still look like a small kid. 

My first boot for frisbee <3 br="">

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So glad that these people came to Canterbury on their south island trip. I've missed Karyna so much.

@ Tekapo.

Mujiib......

Went for a trip to Tekapo, Mount Cook and Queenstown and some of our friends from Welly had came to join. 

@ Queenstown. We had our fright Night adventure and congrats to Naqib for his first experience. 

Mount Cook with gang

First Aidil Adha without family and it was during Malaysian Night

Had my first party with these awesome people from CMSA. Meet Justin, Sunny, Adam and Jiiky.

Friendship was built with these great people and they are my gang at Canter (other than Mai). Meet Tessa, Sunny, and Charissa!

Other than that, i have started to play futsal with Dandan and the rest. I did not enjoy it much even though they do recognise my skills. The people weren't friendly enough with me and thats what disappoint me.
Ayesha and Karyna both broke up with their boyfriends and Ayesha had the worst. I tried to be there for her but i have to admit, it was really hard for her. BE STRONG AYESHA.

My first frisbee championship was with them and we won the best team spirit. Go One Hit Wonder!

Frisbee was also an important thing to me and i had gathered up all my courage to join the university's team. I am lucky because this team is always short of girls. 

I also had great roommates especially Emma. We spent the last few days together at Canter before i left for Malaysia and she left for Wellington before going back to the State.

Emma and i 

Costume party and my costume is solely based on my training outfit !

Meet Sydney, who is a  great teammate and she is so bubbly! i hope i will be able to see her again.

Honey Badgers <3 br="">

And then, i went back to Malaysia coz i miss them all!

Congrats to Fasya! And also, i am glad to be able to meet my Sri Aman girls even for a short while.

Short family vacation at Port Dickson. IVE GAINED 6KG WHEN I WAS AT NZ and when i came back, they all called me fat.

On the 4th of December, i started my internship at EY and it is still going on. I am so blessed to be able to get a cool teammates. Natasha, Shazwan, Naqib, Eugene, Esther, Esther Teng, Dylan, Azad, Guo Feng, Farina and more. 

During christmas break, we went to Morib and Johor for vacation. It was a good one because we needed that to spend time with each other. 

Cooked butter chicken for big family of the first time and they loved it!

To wrap up, i lost few friends and i gained few. Being able to further my studies at NZ is such a bless even though it was hard for me. I also learned on how stupid i was to have a fling with someone who has a girlfriend. I was blinded with the feeling that i had and i lost control. I regretted on the things i have done and I'm glad that i managed to realise before it was too late. That relationship was one of my biggest regret because i slowly learned about the truth. I hate how stupid i was and i wish i would never ever believed in all those words. I am also thankful for all those people that have been supporting me throughout this year and i hope Allah will bless them all.

I also learned that no matter what, my family is my backbone in everything. I also learned that whatever i do, as long as my family is okay with it, i will be fine. I have started to think maturely by avoiding dramas. I distanced myself from those who like to create dramas and i have to do so because I've had enough. I have let myself getting hurt so many times and i have to not let it happen again.

Hmm, my parents especially mom mom is pretty worried about me not having boyfriend but knowing me, i should not be in one. I don't think I'm prepared. Oh well, plans are plans. We see how.

May 2016 be a blast for me and the rest of us!